So things have been quite crazy lately, and things really fell apart with me and my friend. I pushed things too far, and I tried to control and manipulate the situation too much. He tried to jump into something he knew he wasn't ready for; he was just trying to be honest with me, which I appreciate, but honestly hurts more than anything if someone's being honest about feelings with very little intent to follow through on it. It was both our faults, and I was hurt and angry, rightfully so, but I failed to recognize that it was my fault too. I'm working on forgiving, because "blaming someone is like letting them live rent-free in your head", and I want to avoid that. So I'm working on forgiving, but not forgetting what he did, and it will take a while (long while) before my trust can fully recover and grow back. But the one thing that I have to trust is that we'll find our natural orbit again someday, and that we'll stay friends. I still have hope in the world, and for all that I'm a cynic, I'm also a total romantic, and I know I'll find the right guy for me someday. He won't be perfect, and I'm not perfect, and I don't expect him to sweep me off my feet, but I know that if we have the right spark, we can work together and make the relationship perfect. This is my summer, the summer I try to make myself the best possible version of me that I can be, the summer I focus on myself, on introspection, on becoming more beautiful inside and out, on my talents and skills, on being a better person, and on having fun BY MYSELF, no guys necessary. I will trust again; I don't want to be lonely. Guarding my heart forever, just because I've been hurt so badly a few times, and being lonely isn't the way to live. I like taking chances and risks, and I will eventually take a chance on another guy, but this time, I won't rush into it, I'll be more sure of myself and have a better grip on my insecurities, and he'll be the right guy. Maybe not Mr. Forever (because there's no such thing as "Mr. Right" or "Mr. Perfect", but there is a Mr. Forever for everyone) but he'll be "Mr. Right for the present", not just any guy I take a chance on because I'm done with being single. Next relationship around, I'll be a stronger person. I'm looking to go into informal, voluntary to work through some of my major trust issues anyway. I know it's good to be careful with trust, especially since I've been hurt so much, but sometimes I feel like holding my trust back so much actually gets in my own way. I'd like to be able to trust people more easily, and hurt less when my trust is broken. I feel like I dramatize it too much, unintentionally. I want to be careful with my heart, but not TOO careful, like I am now. I take chances without really taking them; I overanalyze the situation and refuse to really feel the chance, and for once, I want to change that and just live. I need to stop trying to control situations and their outcomes and let them just happen as they're meant to, and know that as long as I gave it my all with my heart, that's good enough. It's an internal issue I need to work through and talking to someone outside of family/friends might actually help. Opening up to someone new might be the first step in trusting? I don't know. We'll see. For now I just want something positive to come out of this situation, stop looking for any guy, and just focus on myself, my future, my personality, my interests and all that. And a spa day or two thrown in couldn't hurt! :) ANYWAY. I'll get back to updating to previous post soon enough, but I just have a couple things to say at the moment: 1) SO jealous that Nina Dobrev got to hang with Florence Welch at the Nylon party. I love Florence Welch right now, she's part English, part fashion icon, part music, part rocker, and all AWESOME. She's a great, unique style inspiration (she's a little Zooey Deschanel, actually, but Zooey generally has her own unique, incomparable thing going on.) 2) I have a song-of-the-day for you guys! My cousin actually introduced me to it. It's a little Taylor Swift-esque (maybe she's the new Taylor Swift? Taylor Swift's songs are too angry and mean these days anyway.) but I love this song, and I ESPECIALLY love the music video for this song. It's super artsy and tasteful (artful?) and so soft, ethereal and beautiful all around. The sweetest thing is that Kimberly Perry (The Band Perry is actually a family band) is 28 and actually wrote the entire song herself; 28's old, yes, but it's still fairly young and already she's talking about death with the kind of maturity Taylor Swift will never have. (I think TSwift's just stuck in some sort of fantasy fairytale love thing that will never actually happen. You don't meet Mr. Perfect; you meet Mr. Alright and together you work to become the perfect couple.) Anyway, back to the song: I love it, and hope you guys will too.
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Hi! Okay so I sound cheerful. Maybe there's hope with me and my friend yet... maybe I was too quick to write him off. THEN AGAIN... I'm also going to be more careful with my heart this go around. We'll see. In this post... we can get back to Candice Accola, and her super sexy vampire fashion sense, yes. (Also, so happy Nina and Ian actually went public with their year-long offscreen romance.... it's cool. They make a good couple, despite the fact that she's taller than him in 4inches or more heels...and she once shot an action sequence for tVD in 6-inch heels... yikes. Anyway, now that the customary random tangent's out of the way...) By the way... I know I talk about the Vampire Diaries too much. It's not my fault that I love the show so much! In my defense though, quite a few posts lately have been Vamp-mention free. So after this post I'll desist from talking about the cast for a while.... maaaybe. Nina might be featured in another upcoming post...but only her workout and fitness secrets... speaking of which, I was too lazy to work out today, and I binged on unhealthy food. Bad me! I'm so bad with consistency sometimes... though to be fair I've been fairly consistent with the workouts and controlled eating in the last couple weeks. Maybe I needed a break today? I also have a really active day coming up tomorrow!
Hi guys. I'll admit I'm ridiculously bad at keeping on track with promised posts, but after this tangent, and after just another tangent, we'll get right back on track! This kind of is a promised post anyhow, though; I did want to cover Selena Gomez and the latest anyway. It doesn't matter so much though; I kind of like the unplanned flow of these blog posts; I love being a go-with-the-flow kind of girl anyway. [Speaking of go-with-the-flow girls, I'll definitely be blogging on the music and fashion industries' newest baby -Florence Welch, featured on the cover of Nylon's music issue, arguably the most eclectic issue of the magazine yet.] Anyway, that was a tangent within itself, but here's the post for today: I'll be frank. I'm not a big fan of Selena Gomez's newest songs, released to promote her newest album, When The Sun Goes Down, due to be released June 28, 2011. Who Says, for me, has really been the only great, typical Selena-style girl-power ballad so far. Bang Bang Bang is a little too Miley Cyrus-esque for me; trying too hard to grow up before her time. Far be it for me to turn into a critic; everyone tries to grow up dramatically at some point in their lives, and being in the spotlight 24/7 certainly doesn't excuse a person from naturally being and behaving like a teenager. I'm just critiquing the song for sounding autotuned to death, repetitive, and just something without any real substance. Miley Cyrus' songs don't have substance, but Selena Gomez's songs, even the songs that are meant to be fun, have always had substance, and that's why this song kind of disappoints; it has no substance, and in that is more Miley-esque than typical Selena. And I think autotune is the biggest crime in the music industry anyway. Autotune is meant to be used sparingly, not liberally, as more and more artists are using it. At least Lady Gaga uses autotune to give her songs cool, interesting twists and effects. I feel like Sel is actually trying to grow up too fast, instead of letting it happen naturally, with class. I doubt she'll go the Miley route, since she's still classier than that, but I feel like she's heading there slowly, with the trashy songs and increasingly trashier outfits... I understand she's 18, and can dress however she wants, but she should probably save that "I'll dress however I want" for behind closed doors and private outings instead of album covers and public appearances (2011 MMVAs, anyone? Seriously, did NOT need to see that much back at a red carpet affair. 9 year old kids who idolize her were watching that....) Which brings me to my second point. I'm DEFINITELY not a fan of Bang Bang Bang, or of Love You Like A Love Song, but the album cover of When The Sun Goes Down is actually really, really pretty. The single release cover of Bang Bang Bang is super classy, too, whereas I don't think the single release covers of Love You Like A Love Song and Dices (the Spanish version of Who Says) are quite so cute. MMVA fashions will be discussed separately at a later date. See for yourself and sound off in the comments if you feel like.... I really think that Selena Gomez's class has taken a major hit lately, what with PDA-ing all over Hawaii with her not-yet-legal boyfriend, and the less-than-classy album covers, and the autotuned, substance-lacking mildly catchy but more annoying "music" she's producing. The PDA itself... I'm not against showing some love, but it was way too much for public, and lets all remember that Justin Bieber's only 16.... am I the only one who thinks that's a little weird? I wouldn't care if it was behind closed doors, and I know they didn't ask to be role models, but there IS something known as class, whether you're sixteen, eighteen, or forty. Age has nothing to do with how trashy or appropriate overdone public PDA is... seriously; that much PDA would be gross from anyone, and being as-yet illegal doesn't help matters. Sel should have known better; she's older and has been in the limelight longer. Seems like eighteen might not be Selena's year. Left: I super love the Cleopatra-esque look going on in this proposed album art for Selena's upcoming album, When The Sun Goes Down. It's super classy, and has a bit of an old-school Hollywood vibe to it, with all the feathers and the green plush, and the rich, soft colors; off-white, sweet pink and rich, lush green. The font is really different and cool too and it all adds to the class of the album art and of Selena's upcoming project in general. It's definitely a very visually striking piece of art. Left: The heels especially are gorgeous in this black-and-white single cover of Bang Bang Bang. The block-heel style is a refreshing departure from the typical pencil-thin stilettos often seen gracing, record album and magazine covers. The black-and-white effect, as I've often mentioned before, also adds a touch of old-school class and beauty to the photo. I think Old Hollywood was definitely the most glamorous, classiest definition of beauty, because it was a genuine beauty, contrived solely for the pleasure of the self. Modern beauty is aimed and created more to sell rather than pleasing the self. "There is nothing more beautiful than art created for the sake of itself, and for the artist." (c/o Hellcats' captain Vanessa Lodge) Classic beauty was unassuming and didn't know it was beautiful; it just was. There was a certain innocence and simplicity associated with old-school beauty, Hollywood or not. Modern beauty is too contrived, and too self-aware, aiming to be beautiful, instead of just being. Tangent aside, I really love this cover art! I admit, the song's catchy, but seriously lacks substance, and any sort of epic punch, considering Sel has a four-piece band backing her (critics say the same... the song's fairly lackluster with a monotone singing voice compared to Sel's other songs). But I guess it wins points for being catchy; it'll probably make it onto iTunes top something just because it's somewhat catchy and because it was churned out by Selena Gomez. Clearly, death threats from Bieber-lovers haven't impacted Selena Marie Gomez's popularity too significantly, considering the song has mixed reviews and considering that the girl got to co-host one of the world's most prestigious award shows in Toronto, CA just the other night. (I want tickets next year! Someone hook me up? I'd be eternally grateful!) More on the MMVAs later, of course. Right: I think that's a really pretty shade of pink lipstick that Sel's wearing, and I love the art of the single cover itself (black and pink is a yes for sure, especially for Selena's girly-bubbly-yet-empowered personality... I think I like hyphens (-) way too much) but I didn't THAT much cleavage was necessary on a single cover. In public. Which little girls are looking at on their iTunes, and wondering where their covered up idol went. Yes, I know, it's not like celebrities ASK to be put on pedestals, but Selena knew what she signed up for, and she should wear that kind of stuff in her private circle to mark her growing up; she shouldn't necessarily be parading it in the public eye. There's nothing wrong with wearing risque outfits when out with friends or whatever, but when you're so famous, the key is to wear it and not parade it. The thing is, I guess I'm not really qualified to be commenting, and in truth, I'm not Selena-bashing at all. She's still probably the most grounded of all the Disney starlets (bar maybe Demi Lovato... it DOES take an insane amount of courage to actually get help and leave a TV show because it became an unhealthy amount of pressure... at least she didn't go off the rails completely and is now on track to getting better). But yeah. No Selena-bashing. Just opinion-stating.... and criticizing of outfits that are a little too revealing. I know it's a promotional stunt, and not her daily outfit, but given what she wore to the MMVA awards as co-host, it looks like the risque in her outfits is becoming a trend, not a promotional stunt. Again, the song, Love You Like A Love Song, obviously talking about Bieber, because apparently, at this point in life Selena "wants wholeheartedly to be in love", is catchy, but lacks any real substance, and is repetitive and gets boring. Mostly it sounds like it's a throwback Season 2 Hannah Montana manufactured hit for 11 year olds, not even older tweens, which is supposedly Selena's target demographic. I think she's missing the mark with this album; she's barely even begun to experience love; I don't think she's qualified to sing or write about it yet. Hence why this album tanks before it's even lifted off the ground. I mean, I've experienced love, but it's so confusing that I'm certainly not qualified to write or blog about it; why should a celebrity my age be any different? I think Selena should just go back to singing more general, dance-friendly and people-friendly songs; her "personal, I'm-so-in-love" songs just come off as bland and boring and factory-manufactured pop songs that, while being a hit for now, will fizzle out very soon. No one's going to remember this song over, for instance, A Year Without Rain, or even Who Says. Not that either of those songs are iconic either, but they're better than this one. In fact, pain is always raw and genuine. Happy feelings of love are harder to capture in lyrics, so while Love You Like A Love Song comes off as typical and "been there done that", as Selena herself acknowledges, A Year Without Rain was much more personal and genuine, and therefore more successful. Ironically, a still from the videoshoot for Love You Like A Love Song is actually super high fashion. The close up of cleavage just isn't as pretty, and seems more '70's hooker than anything else to me, what with all the bright pink, sequins and makeup. But this, this is high fashion: Right: The short black tulle skirt with the top and boots is actually '80's glam pinup and cute. It's girly, flirty, fun, with the rosy cheeks and coquettish pose, and it's bright and childish but grown up at the same time -very Alice In Wonderland. That charm makes this photo high fashion and sweet, but bright and popping at the same time. It feels like a garden faerie might pop out of nowhere or something, in the bright light hitting the tall grass. It kind of does feel like Wonderland, and the merry band of musicians, actually. Speaking of, Selena might be playing the role of Snow White in a remake of the classic tale. Maybe the bright cheeks and pose are preparing her for the part? Left: More cleavage? I personally think I've seen all I care too. I admit I like the champagne-on-black and the texture of her corset-like top, and to be fair, Selena did say she was trying to experiment with a more Gaga and Katy Perry style tour for this album, and I guess that explains the electropop dance beats and the more risque outfits (nothing on Gaga or Perry, but the Alice-in-Wonderland above shot is slightly reminiscent of some of Katy Perry's music videos), but... again, children see it. Gaga and Perry aren't as popular with 9 year olds, and nobody really wants to look like Gaga in a meat dress, at the end of the day, no matter how cool she looks. And 11-year-old girls, in my opinion, don't need to be wanting boobs just yet, to be like idol Selena. It's not Selena's responsibility to control what her audience looks like or takes to heart, but being in the limelight so much so young, she does have a responsibility to be careful about what's publicized and what stays private (or at least tries to stay private - off tour). On a tangent, maybe this is why kiddie plastic-surgery and breast implant procedures especially, are on the rise? At least Heidi Montag can claim no one under the age of 15, arguably 14, maybe 13 (interesting movie, Thirteen...) keeps up with her trashy tabloid lifestyle. Additionally, I don't like Selena's nude lip. I think she needs some color; peach, pale pink, light pink, bright pink, coral, whatever. Even bright reds or deeps work, but Selena can't pull off a nude lip... I feel like it washes out her cheeks and upper lip and her complexion in general and makes her look less fresh-faced. I think she's wearing too much makeup in general in this photo. Not my favorite, by far. Annnnnyway. I think I'm done with criticizing young popstars for today. I mean, terrible singers and moral compasses though some of them might be, they're still making millions more than I am... If anything, however, I do like and truly appreciate/admire Selena's ability to take risks and branch out and do her own thing, no matter what critique she receives for it. Selena's always willing to go the distance and take a chance on herself just to see whether she can accomplish what she sets her mind to; Selena's been taking risks in the fashion world by experimenting with collections of late, she's been taking risks in huge leaps and bounds on her new album and with the fashion for that album, as seen above, she's been taking chances and moving in new (not necessarily positive, but...) directions with her sound on the new album, and she took a chance on Justin Bieber, and that seems to have worked out well. I really love her can-do-anything personality, and her vibrancy and joy and passion for everything that she does. I guess, despite her faults and despite however we may, as voyeurs, critique her, there's something positive in everything, and Selena's willingness to take a risk shines through all of her decisions, even if the end result of her risks don't always pay off and earn some critique. It's a good thing, though, to continually challenge oneself, no matter what critique you feel you might receive. That's why I applaud Selena, for being brave enough to take chances no matter the risk of failing, and no matter what the outcome might be.... so despite her recent failures, her outlook on life is still a positive one, and one we should all embrace, even if we fail just as badly/publicly. Critique her decisions, but applaud her bravery in being gutsy enough to make those decisions in the first place. Being brave enough to risk everything to gain something is so amazing, and so much better than continuing to be diplomatic, which often amounts to only half-living. Speaking of, I'm about ten days away from a new laptop, so I'm super excited. I'm probably just going to have it shipped...though I'll have to explain what it's for. Truth or lie? Hmm. Can't decide. I'm not a big fan of lies, but I'm feeling too lazy to come out with the truth... time to concoct a crazy story I guess! One more thing... guys are officially ridiculous to figure out. Things are insane between me and my friend. Haven't talked to him in a while. Guess that goes to show; don't ever let feelings interfere in a friendship that means more to you than a relationship would.
Fefe Dobson's "Stuttering" ...I really do wonder what the trend with stuttering in songs is. Everybody from Rihanna, the queen mama of stuttering, to Lady Gaga, to Beyonce, to Katy Perry, to Selena Gomez has been there, stuttering to get a point across within a song. That was a tangent, but it's not a bad catchy pop song, and the video's cute. As is true; "as much as I wanted to blame someone else, it was me that needed to be held accountable." Live it and love it, girlies. <3
So here I am, blogging from the land up north, otherwise known as Canada! Stuff's definitely been going on since I've been in the CA for all of 3 days, so I'll give you guys a quick personal update first and then outline what's in store for the blog. Maybe I'll throw out something substantial by the end of the post, though I'm sorry to say I don't really have a song-of-the-day; I haven't been listening to good music much lately. Nothing new really catches my fancy; it all sounds like fake autotuned crap. Real music should be raw, real, emotional, and sound like it's straight from the recording studio and the artist, and it shouldn't sound like it's been autotuned to death before being released, even though I realize most songs are autotuned a liiiittle. That's why I like garage productions best; they're so real. Anyway, I just need some new bands to listen to; the pop-synth that's been on the airwaves so much recently is starting to make me sick. Anyway, personal updates time! First things first, I've been slacking a little with the workouts, but I've been swimming, playing basketball, getting in a little aerobics routine (15 minute workout!) every other day, along with managing my diet so I'm not gorging ridiculously (I swear there's SO much good food to eat in this house...) so I'm trying to stay in shape. I need to keep up with my cardio and be running more; I'm a little guilty that I'm not. I should also be doing more than just 15 minutes a day of my Nike Training Club workouts.... I'll work on it. Those flat abs won't earn themselves. Anyway. My emotions have gone through a bit of an upheaval in the past 3 days too; my best friend confessed that he liked me, but wasn't ready for the committment it took to maintain a semi-LDR, since we're currently going to school in different states, and both have jobs, friends, family, interests, ambitions and just things to juggle in our own separate lives. So since nobody can just drop their life and visit, the idea got shelved, but I mean it hurt me because it wasn't my idea to get all honest and confessional. I feel like being honest and confessing feelings is really a waste of time unless you're willing to act on them and follow up on them. My friend should really have killed his feelings and spared mine, I mean he should acknowledge his like for me, but he should have been noble and not hurt me with honesty. Maybe I'm just aiming too high and looking too much for a Prince Charming who'll put me above all else. I mean it does sound a bit unrealistic, but one of my friends actually has that kind of relationship (that's not a perfect relationship either, but there's a ridiculous amount of love and chivalry there...) so I don't know why I can't have the same kind of love shared with me. I wonder if I don't deserve it, or whether I'm just not being patient enough? I get asked out a lot to be honest. Just not by the kind of guy it's possible to have something long-term with, I feel. I was also thinking about how so many of my friendships go sour because I don't make friends easily with girls anyway, since they tend to be high-drama, and I hate tiptoeing on eggshells around people, trying not to offend them. Guys are so much more chill, and take offense much less easily, so I make better friends with guys anyway, but they usually end up liking me (or vice versa, but I never act on my feelings - I've learnt to hide my feelings so well that the guys don't even realize) and things go south. I hate how I lose friends because of stupid hormones. Idk. It'd be nice to just have a great friend and nothing more (I have a few of those, guys and girls, but I used to have SO many more before things went south...) Anyway, I guess I'm still friends with this guy, but things are awkward now. I know I'll never trust him like I used to again, but more independence might not be a bad thing. I was overly dependent on him sometimes. I'm sure we'll get back to being good friends eventually though; I'll just never trust him like that again. I'll have learnt to keep my distance. I'm also sure I'll find someone perfect someday (I have to keep hoping). So there's my emotional upheaval. As far as everything else goes... I'm saving for a new laptop. I want a $450 laptop; I have about $250 at the moment. (Actually I have more but I'm not allowed to spend the rest of the 'savings') so I'll probably be riding the new laptop train by July. I also need to buy my friend a birthday present though, and apply for an internship by July 15 (the Seventeen online internship, actually!) so wish me luck with my to-do list. I'll post my regularly scheduled post in the next post after a song-of-the-day, but after that I kind of want to talk about the 2011 MMVAs, which I watched today! (Some of my favorite people were there!! Selena Gomez co-hosted, and Shay Mitchell, Kat Graham, Nina Dobrev, Ian Somerhalder, and Matt Webb of Marianas Trench were all there!! I'll actually throw out a MMVA music video that won as a song-of-the-day in the next post! I kind of like it; it's not my favorite song, but it's nice to listen to blasting from the car on a hot summer day.) And I want to talk about some of the MMVAs fashion; hits, misses, performances, etc. I'll also talk about the newest Vogue Nostalgia article, which is similarly beautiful, and the Vogue feature on Charlene Wittstock, Monaco's new princess that proves being a royal princess isn't just about sitting pretty. Until then, Bisous.
Okay, guys. I'm a spineless, jelly-legged chicken, so no laptop for me as I'm Canada-bound. I'll get on the home computer and update this blog once in a couple days though. And come July, I'll have enough money to buy myself a new laptop without getting in trouble for it... I mean I'll probably still get in trouble for it but at least I'll have a laptop again and I'll have bought it with my own cash, so.... yeah. I'll be getting into less trouble, I guess. Anyway, the slightly more tech-free vacation should be more fun, I guess, even though I still have my phone and will probably be glued to that quite a bit. (Which, may I add, is also cracking --whose idea was it to make the BACK of the iphone 4 GLASS? I like how it used to aluminum; dentable but unbreakable -___-... so yeah my phone's a little fragile too, but I'll just go ahead and replace that in august when I can. No sense doing it now. By august I'll have a laptop to back everything up on as well :D Anyway. So tech-free vacation (I'll try and put the phone away, spend more time in the hot tub/pool...) means more catching up with family. I'll be able to keep up with Pretty Little Liars on the home computer too and I guess that's all I really need. I really need to work on my confrontational/being honest skills though. No scheming to avoid getting in trouble ever ends well on TV, but whether or not honesty's really the best policy all the time is a little debateable, especially in my world. ANYWAY, really gotta go; still gotta clean/pack some last minute things before I leave in... 40 minutes. Oops..... gotta run, NOW! Next time I write, it'll be from up north, the land of Ice Hockey :) peace!
Okay, okay. I'm totally procrastinating packing by blogging. I even have to throw some clothes into the washer T_T I really don't want to get up and do anything productive at the moment, to be honest, but unfortunately this is my last post before I really do have to fill up my suitcase. Consider it a gift, since I haven't posted for so many consecutive days. I actually really like this song because it's so upbeat and so true. It is mildly childish (Nickelodeon, laughing my ass off...) but it's okay to embrace your childhood every once in a while. It sucks to grow up in general; it sucks even more to grow up too fast. It's funny because when we're young, all we really want is to grow up, but as soon as we actually do we realize growing up and being an adult isn't everything it's cracked up to be, and that childhood and naps are really where the good stuff's at. Ah well. The conundrum of life continues... :) Anyway, here's Big Time Rush. It's kind of a throwback to the Backstreet Boys, pop boy bands and the '90s, and everything that was good about life before it became ridiculously complicated and tough. :D And, let's face it: I just need a pick-me-up, pump-me-up song this morning to get me motivated and get me moving and packing. It kind of feels like cleaning/laundry day in the dorms..... my day for doing all that was Fridays and I used to never want to clean or do laundry either. I always needed a motivational push... this song should be perfect! It would also be a great workout song... if only I could put it on my iPod... time to hit iTunes? Hell yes!!!
Now, as Big Time Rush says, "go and make your luck with the life you choose!" Also, click the link below to download from iTunes (or go illegal, but I wouldn't advise that..... let's be real though; everyone hates paying $1.29 for songs...); I'll start including iTunes links for all the songs-of-the-day featured from now on, for easy iPod access! xo
And apparently, by later, I mean I'll be posting that other song-of-the-day now...... I really get addicted to blogging sometimes. I think I just have an easily addictable personality in general. Anyway, here's the full song + lyrics first.
Now, here's a ridiculously cool fan video for this song. The video doesn't contain the full song, but the video clip itself is SO great; the person who made it seems to be really talented. I love finding videos that are actually amazing and not trash on YouTube (sorry but it's true. no amount of positivity can get around the fact that people with absolutely no talent whatsoever use YouTube as a platform to pedal their "talent"...... and by that, of course I mean Rebecca Black >.>) This video, however, is actually awesome. It's kind of reminiscent to Birdy's Skinny Love video, actually! That's true talent. <3 Here's the video!
Heya. I just want to throw out a song in anticipation of the Candice-centric post I'll throw out later tomorrow. Hopefully, laptop situation permitting. :3 Still need the courage to deal with that. BUT if Candice Accola/Caroline Forbes can be courageous and get up and sing, I can bring up my dead laptop with my hopefully understanding parents. So, here's an early song-of-the-day, and the actual Vampire Diaries karaoke vid! :)
I love her voice! I think it's better than the original, and would put it on my iPod if I could find a download of this version! Here's the actual tVD karaoke clip of this; there's no embed because this video couldn't be embedded, but click HEREto access the video. i still have to pack, and work out, since I skipped working out last night after going to Taco Bell (I was feeling sooooo lazy. Bad me!). I'm also super addicted to this song-of-the-day thing, so I'm going to post one more song before I head out to Canada! I'll post in a little while, and for all you judgey haters, it'll be Ke$ha. I really do like a whole bunch of different music, but I definitely have things I need to be doing right now, so I'll check in later :)
The last post got really long, so here's a spotlight of Victoria Justice's style in this post! In the next post, I'll get back to Candice Accola, and the blog after that... well, stay tuned. For now, here are some of what I think are Victoria Justice's best looks! As well as a freaky coincidence... Keep in mind that since I'm partial to leather, there's a lot of looks with leather here since Vic seems to like the leather as well. Above Top: That, is an awesome hat! And Wearing a white vest of blue sequined top, topping it off with a fedora... classic, and amazingly cute. Victoria's long hair helps complete the beachy-but-classy, ready-for-the-pier look too! Above Bottom: That's the flat stomach that really inspires me to work out so much! Not only that, but she looks so comfortable and so good in her own skin, and she seems to be having so much fun with her co-star, Daniella Monet, who plays her sister on the show Victorious. It looks awesome to not worry about your body and just be so carefree with who you are as a person, That carefree freedom of calorie counting and weight obsession is what my real goal is, more than just physical fitness. I'm looking for mental liberation and fitness and the freedom to just live my life away from the pressure to look good. I want to work out because it FEELS good, and because I WANT to, for the endorphin rush, not because I want to see any kind of physical result. That's my summer quest (and I'll be trying yoga to try and reach that mental liberation!) Above Top: That's a daring, really cute top, and Victoria pulls it off really well, with just the right amount of confidence! Her cheekbones = <3 Above Bottom: I want that dress! That sweetheart lace dress is really cute, and lace is one of the biggest trends of the summer. Pairing a white lace dress with brown wooden heels is genius too. Great sense of style! Above Top Left: Black leather jacket on a white lace dress = another classic. The black booties are cute, and a refreshing change from the usual black heels usually seen at public events. Above Top Right: Victoria Justice goes rocker-chic in a vintage-inspired white tee, black leather jacket, skinny jeans and black heels! I love pushing up the sleeves of my black leather jacket too so that it doesn't look like it's eating me alive; a little forearm peeking out of the leather jacket is a great way to create a sleeker silhouette, so a leather jacket with cropped sleeves is a great investment, especially since leather never really goes out of style, and cropped sleeves are better for slightly warmer days in the spring and fall seasons. Above Bottom: Leather jackets in a different color than black are cool too! They can make an outfit a little less edgy, and a little brighter and a little more fun, bringing back the girliness of the outfit. Wearing them over basic tshirts is a great summer/fall look; avoid wearing bright leather over girly, lacy shirts or dresses unless you specifically like a more feminine look. Bright, colorful leather takes away from the edge factor of a look, but color's always a good thng to bring in to your look, and bright leather definitely brings an element of color. Leather doesn't always have to equate to edgy or badass; it can be fun, too! I have a green one and a beige one, and I love them. This purple one is super cute; I actually kind of want it :S The matching going on between Daniella Monet and Victoria Justice is sweet too. They really do sort of look like sisters in real life! Above Top: I love the sparkling top! The colorful necklace is cute too, and Victoria's skin is glowing and looks so healthy and great. I love this cover for her single; Beggin' On Your Knees; it's artistic and beautiful, and Victoria herself looks gorgeous. The song's pretty good to, as you might be able to tell by my last post... Above Bottom: I think it's SO weird, but SO awesome that two of my favorite, best inspirations, in terms of fitness AND fashion AND personality/character, apparently look like each other! I didn't see the resemblance at first, but now I kind of can. It's a little weird, and eerie, but cool. They apparently get mistaken for each other quite a bit too. I don't see myself doing that (NO ONE could ever have Victoria's cheekbones.... Nina definitely doesn't.), but I guess I see how it's possible, especially if they wore their hair similar. Doppelganger freakiness! Maybe Victoria could get a part on the Vampire Diaries as the original Petrova doppelganger? I'd actually really like to see that happen. Their personalities are actually a bit similar too; they're both so sweet, so fit, they both love leather, they both have flawless skin... This is actually pretty cool, and they both mean so much to me and inspire me and my lifestyle so much! So awesome! There you guys have it; Style Spotlight for the day on Victoria Justice! I'll cover Candice Accola in the next post, and Lucy Hale + Pretty Little Liars in the post after! Get ready for a flurry of fashion coming your way!
Hey sweethearts. I know I'm being terribly irregular with the blogging. That, and I need to traffic out my blog a bit more XD But I'm going to get my laptop situation resolved one way or another today, probably go hit Best Buy/BJs/whatever and go get a new one, or order it and have it shipped so I can receive it while I'm in Canada [yes, I'm traveling to Canada, and hopefully I'll be able to blog just as regularly from Canada!]. I do miss blogging regularly though. I have a couple things to share today. The fashion posts I mentioned earlier will be coming through a little later tonight, because I won't be able to blog tomorrow [packing, I have a two hour flight tomorrow night], and such. So I'll throw out a song of the day in this post, and talk about how excited I am that I've actually stuck with working out this time! Every muscle hurts, but in a good way. I'm trying to eat right and eat less too and hopefully I'll see results soon. I really want to start seeing results in the next couple of weeks. Eee I'm so excited to seee that LBD fit even better! Fashion starts with being fit, after all. Okay so, I'll talk more about my workout in a sec, and about the people that inspire me to be as beautiful and fit as I possibly can, inside and out, riiiight after this song-of-the-day! It's a great song, super upbeat and awesome, and it's a great workout song too! It's just something cool to cheer you up when you're down, or just put an extra spring in your step, even if you're not down and out.
So, Victoria Justice is freaking awesome. Awesome sense of style, awesome bod (and a major inspiration for me to get fit and in shape too!), and she has a really cute, upbeat, grounded personality. She's not always happy, but she's never fake. She's always true to herself, and takes her music mad seriously. I can definitely respect and admire someone who makes music such an important focus in their life, since it's such an important focus in mine (I'm definitely picking up a guitar sometime soon~ I'll probably get my younger cousin in Canada to teach me how to play, since he plays both acoustic and electric, and has been playing for freaking years. He's pretty good; remind me to videocam something, an impromptu basement performance (my other, even younger cousin drums really well!) while I'm in Canada, and upload it here and onto YouTube!) I actually think the show Victorious is really cute too, but above all I love Victoria Justice's confidence, and how okay with herself she is. I love her killer cheekbones too; they're so sharp they look like they could cut. She'd look awesome and edgier with short hair; but I really like her curls and waves so... lol. But she could pull off any outfit with those cheekbones. She's so fit and so skinny (not in a bad way, either!) too; it's so great. She's part of the reason I'm so inspired to get especially my abs and core into shape. I've started using the Nike Training Club app on my iPhone (yea, it's free, and awesome... I overuse the word awesome way too much. For an aspiring journalist/writer, this is not a good thing.) The NTC app is cool because it offers four different types of workouts; get Lean, get Strong, get Toned, and get Focused. The Get Focused is definitely my favorite, because it contains 5 or 6 15-minute workouts targeting specific areas of the body, such as 'Butt Buster', 'Ab Burner' (Ab Burner is my favorite!), 'Cardio Burst', 'Shoulder Ripper', etc. It's cool cause they're not too strenous workouts, it's really easy to carve 15 minutes to workout, and I really want that 4-pack flat tummy, so the Ab Burner is really great. The Butt Buster is fun too! I love my booty ;) The app also rewards you with minutes; once you reach a set number of minutes you can unlock different rewards, such as a recipe for power smoothies, or, at 1000 workout minutes, Lea Michele's Triple-Threat Workout that keeps her in shape and looking so cute! So yeah, it's awesome, and I never choose the same workout two days in a row (I do the Ab ZBurner workout every day, but mix up the rest of the routine) so I never really get bored of my workout! Additionally I'm either using the treadmill or running outdoors, or biking outdoors, or playing basketball, so I'm getting my cardio in. Weights are the only thing I'm really not doing right now, but... I'll get on that later. So yea, it's really important to work out and eat right, not only to be skinny, but to be the healthiest, fittest, hottest, most beautiful version of yourself that you possibly can be. Since I've been working so hard, I want to reward myself and showcase a little bit of Victoria Justice's style, just so I feel like I can eventually be as cute as her! (Another person-of-the-day cover will be coming soon, covering another one of my workout inspirations, and red-carpet style inspirations! Hint, it's obviously a tVD star. Speaking of TV, SO happy that Pretty Little Liars is finally back on air with its summer premiere! LOVE the looks there too; I'll showcase a style special later!) But, for now, here's a few shots of Vic's great style (I'm a sucker for leather all day, errday anyway):
Hi guys. I know I promised you a post a while ago, but things got crazy with family visiting and all. I definitely plan on finishing up that post on Candice Accola, however, since I love her fashion closet so much, and her killer, fun dresses and leather jackets! I love her fashion closet almost as much as her spunk, her joie-de-vivre, her cheerfulness and her go-getter, girl-power attitude. It's such a mouthful if you try to say all that! Afterwards I'm actually going to veer off track and talk about fitness a little! I've been working out a whole lot more, lately; I've taken up running on the treadmill -for some reason, I like to run indoors much more than I like running outdoors. But I like biking and playing fun games of soccer and basketball outdoors, so it all balances out. So I'll talk about how much I love working out, and different workouts to try, and I'll throw in a little bit on how it's really easy to stay active, stay fit and get in shape even if you don't actually have time to exercise! Tons of celebs actually stay in shape without really working out when they're on tour or living out of a trailer for months at a time, and don't have access to all their workout equipment. So I'll post a blurb on that. After that... well, track back to see who else I said I'd talk about (the person-of-the-day is definitely becoming a regular column!) or you could just stay tuned to find out. Additionally, I DO have a song of the day! I actually love this song because it's so motivational; I love listening to it while I work out. Aly Michalka has such a powerful voice, and the Hellcats routine that was set to this song in the season finale was EPIC. I love all the flips! It's gotta take so much determination and hard word, perseverence and raw talent to train this intenively for routines like this, all the while being directed for the camera. More intense has to be doing multiple takes of the same intensive routine and pushing through the injuries and burns. Anyway... this is actually a fan video from youtube to the song, since there isn't an official music video for this, but I love it all the same. Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do!
Hey guys. I actually want to save Lucy Hale for another post, and talk instead about someone who's really been amazing and inspiring of late; Candice Accola. Not only do I think Candice's character on the Vampire Diaires, Caroline, is amazing, but Candice herself has a killer sense of style and personality to boot. Caroline, of course, is awesome and relateable, because, as Candice puts it, "Caroline doesn't get it right the first time." She messes up, doesn't always know the right thing to say or do, is, at times, "a neurotic insecure control freak on crack", and has to find her way just like everybody else. She isn't "miss perfect, miss unattainable"; she's human, even though, of course, as of Season 2, she's officially a vampire. Despite her vampire characteristics, Caroline may be the most human out of all the characters, in terms of making mistakes and trying to make better choices, and being relateable and so normal in general. The great thing is that it's Candice who brings so much life and spunk into this character, so girlfriend's definitely got some serious acting chops. Read on as I cover this talented young actress, and what makes her so incredible and inspiring to me personally. Before I talk some more about Candice, the star behind the hit TV character, here's a short clip of the actress talking Season 3, Caroline, and her birthday.
How's that for spoilers?! Season 3 will definitely be covering Klaus and the hybrid situation in much more detail, as well as the original Petrova doppelganger ("Charlotte?) that Elijah first mistook Katerina for, when she was human. Speaking of Katerina, I love the quote; "Life's too cruel. If we cease to believe in love, why would we want to live?" As cynical as failure and heartbreak tends to make us, I think it's important to always hold onto that hope of someday finding someone. That was the first moment, besides the one in the tomb when Elena visits her, that we really get to see Katherine's heart. Losing her child so early, at only 17, must have definitely jaded her and made her feel that whomever she loved was going to be ripped away from her, so she got into the habit of leaving first and never really giving her heart to anyone, instead playing games. I think the name Katerina definitely suits her better though. People aren't born evil though; life and circumstances make them jaded, and bitter, and make them do things that are evil in the name of self-preservation...which is basically what Katerina's story is. It's beautiful. I can't wait for Season 3 -the year of the Originals! There's SUCH an amazing storyarc waiting to happen there, as we learn about how everything started.... and as we get to maaaybe tune into a little more Delena! :P Off topic ! First things first, it's absolutely amazing that Candice has achieved so much at such a young age! She's only 24, and landed this amazing, stable role -even though in a show like Vampire Diaries, there's absolutely no guarantees as to which character, outside of the core three, might get written out at any point in time. Sounds like Candice's character is definitely here to stay a while, since there's rumours everywhere of a CarolinexTyler pairing for season 3. BUT, I don't want to focus on the show too much. What I really want to focus on is how amazing her style really is. For those of you used to see her play Caroline, Candice's style is definitely different and much bolder than her character's.
Fab find of the day: This quilted white leatherette bag with a chain-and-leather interwoven strap long enough to let the bag be a cross-body. Chain can be removed to convert the bag into an evening clutch. Big enough to hold most wallets. It's got a nice, kind of vintage look and feel to it, and resembles something from a Chanel store I saw once. White is always reminiscent of classic beauty, but has a tendency to get dirty very fast. Be careful! Don't take it partying, collegiates. It's a great alternative to a standard shoulder-strap bag, if you want a lighter load, AND your hands free. A little steep at $20, it's still an amazing find and will probably last you a while. It's a much better alternative to some of Forever 21's other long-strap cross-body bags; it offers more space and somewhat more durability. I actually picked this up today when I hit the shops and am so excited. Check it out HERE! Here's a photo as well! I am also definitely turning the person-of-the-day idea into a regular feature. I'll feature women who I personally find inspiring; women who have great style and/or a great story to tell. Women who inspire. My next feature will be Lucy Hale, as planned, and.... okay, I give. I'll feature Candice Accola, CW newbie and Vampire Diaries star, afterwards, to get us started. Stay tuned after that; I've got tons of great leading ladies I'm SO excited to blog about. I'll be breaking it down and being real; pointing out the not-so-glamorous reality as well as the inspiring, amazing parts. A healthy dose of girl power coming right up! xo
Alright, so the Kate Winslet post will have to wait for another day. I want to blog about something a little lighter for the moment, and talk about feathers, and Seventeen cover girl and Pretty Little Liar, Lucy Hale. Random thought of the day: I've started watching way too much Degrassi, Next Generation. I haven't been this obsessed with catching up on an entire series and its characters since the OC [which I still miss. Pre-Marissa, of course. The whole attention-seeking damsel-in-distress self-deprecating, self-sabotaging thing is my modus operandi, just a little. I definitely relate to Marissa, and Seasons 1 & 2, maybe 3 Serena vdW from Gossip Girl, way way too much.] Second random thought of the day: I REALLY need a new laptop. Immediately. I want my old one back! I really need to learn to treat technology better and not crash every tech device that lands in my hands... :( Anyway. Continuing; flipping through the latest issue of Seventeen, Lucy Hale definitely has a thing for feathers. Peacock feathers especially are so beautiful, and feather earrings are so beautiful, and lightweight and comfortable in addition. Not to mention that feathers have such an awesome texture, and can instantly add a bright pop of color to an otherwise regular outfit. For my dear readers, this blogger breaks it all down, piece by piece, and I found some really cool feather earrings, at equally cool prices. HEREis one option; first column, second row... comes in multiple colors! I got a pair with purple back feather for just $4.80. 5.7.9 is actually a really cute store that usually has great deals and discounts going on. THISis actually a necklace, not earrings, but pairing two of the cutest jewelry trends in one piece is a genius idea, in my opinion, and Forever 21's done it amazingly. I got this exact same necklace today too; the feather is amazingly soft. Also available in a cerulean shade of blue! THIS, is another soft, cerulean option from Charlotte Russe that won't break the bank! Tan and nude shades are super hot this season, and a great alternative to classic black (the shoe-of-the-day that will be featured will be nude (or "taupe") too!) Pick up a classic feather necklace in a tan shade right HEREfor only $5.50! HEREis a sweet multiple-feather black-and-silver option from Forever 21. Show off your summer-ready shoulder blades with the swinging length on these chain-and-feather EARRINGS! Cerulean is one of the hottest colors for summer. Pair THESEwith a classic white strapless dress with lace accents, and hit the beach! Go off-the-chain with THISlavender-and-chain pair for only $4.00! Dazzle in white with THIS crystal-and-white pair during your big night out on Broadway ;) Go Full Feather Five in THIS charming white fan necklace that's a perfect accent for that sexy new LBD Thanks for tuning in, guys. I'll be back a little later, talking about Lucy Hale, the amazing, down-to-earth girl that's got some serious acting chops and style tricks up her sleeve, and is the girl who inspired this entire article. Peace!
Song of the day! It's beautiful, and on replay on my ipod :) Much more up my usual musical alley than the last few songs of the day have been. Gets me back to my rock/alt roots. Check out "Kings & Queens" and "This Is War" too, also by 30 Seconds to Mars. Kings & Queens is especially amazing. I'll throw in the video for that in this post as welllll. xoxo
Hey guys. So in this post, I'm going to share a little DIY idea. I definitely think the easiest way to add more personality and unique individuality to your look, and to set yourself apart on the fashion scene, is to customie pieces that you might ordinarily buy. Just don't try to to set yourself apart a la Lady Gaga or Nicki Minaj - save the meat dress and sky-high pumps for stage shows, not a day in the real world. Additionally, do NOT take a cue or a style tip from any of these celebs - an overall look at some of the worst-dressed celebrities ever can befound here, and here. Rarely have I seen Blake Lively make a fashion faux-pas, but this, along with her infamous bloody-tampon dress, was definitely one of them. Now, I've got a cute little DIY idea for you! I went shopping today, and noticed that pearls are everywhere.Pearls are traditionally very sweet, straitlaced, and convey a perfect image of a good girl. An easy way to make pearls edgier, however, is to tie two stretchy bold pearl bracelets together with a scrap of black gauze, of a strip of black velvet cloth. Try a piece of red cloth, or a wide piece of wrapping ribbon if you're feeling extra bold! Another way to easily liven pearls up is to take a string of smaller pearls and do one of two things: 1) holding the pearls with one hand, lay a circle of ribbon on one side of the pearl bracelet, and another circle of (same colour) ribbon on the other side of the pearl bracelet. Black's a great color, but be inventive! You can even tie-dye ribbons for extra punch. Now take an extra piece of ribbon and tie all three together - both pieces of ribbon with the pearl bracelet in the middle! Make sure to tie the ribbon tight enough so the pearls don't move from the center. 2) You can cut open the pearl bracelet so you have an open-ended string of pearls. Make sure the beads are stuck firmly to the string and don't slide off! Now interweave a string of ribbon with the pearls, and do the same with a second piece of ribbon - to sort of "braid" the ribbon and pearls together. Again, use any color you want. Once you're finished braiding, tie both ends together FIRMLY(make sure you are using very tiny, very fine pearls. Thick pearls will not work for this.). Use cord to tie both ends, not ribbon. Then, you can attach a clasp to one end of the bracelet, and a hook to the other, (or you can buy a pearl bracelet that already unhooks!) and when you clasp both ends together, you'll have a fabulous, spiced-up set of DIY pearls. Coming up: Song-of-the-day + fab find of the day, and afterward, person-of-the-day, Kate Winslet.
Hi guys. I'm going to just throw out another song-of-the-day and I'll post something longer later, when I get back on. But I absolutely love this song. I've had it for a while; downloaded the whole album because I wanted to listen to Breathe [2 AM], but I let shuffle put this on after that and I ended up loving it. Hope you do too! Anna Nalick's voice, while not Taylor Swift sweet, is intensely powerful, and especially so in this song. Let me also take the time to note that I usually don't listen to this kind of music that I've been using as songs-of-the-day....so I've been surprised (pleasantly surprised, though) at the songs I've been choosing (or the songs that have been choosing me) as songs-of-the-day. There's been a significant lack of hard rock or rock in general, or even metal :3 Oh well. It'll come :) I'm open to all kinds of music. Here ya go:
So I'm going to go ahead and post the song-of-the-day a little early for once. It's a great song, beautiful and meaningful; it is country, and if country's not your thing, listen to the song once for the lyrics and ignore the music. Focus on the lyrics :P
As it talks so much about wishing others well, this song/video definitely relates to my post directly below. Please, please PLEASE take the time to check out the blog post as well as the accompanying links below! I myself am trying to get something going on campus, and trying to spread the word, and anyone reading this should do the same. It would mean the world to so many people. Spread the word. Get involved. Be beautiful; stay beautiful.
beauty comes in many, many forms; a fact that is often forgotten. Beauty is usually perceived as a visual characteristic; too often associated with the fashion or makeup world, or the world of glamour and glitz and paparazzi and red carpets. However, one of the most amazing, important forms of beauty lies in giving back to the community that gives so much to us, and showing off the beauty of our soul and self, by helping those less fortunate than us. A cause that is especially close to my heart for personal reasons is the Somaly Mam Foundation, an organization committed to ending modern-day slavery around the world, including in North America. Somaly Mam herself is a survivor of sexual slavery, and has used her experiences to co-found the Somaly Mam Foundation in an effort to educate others about the predicament of girls sold into slavery everywhere, and to try and help these girls escape. Human trafficking is born out of a need for economy and survival, and the poorest of countries, such as Cambodia, Somaly's birthplace, have found that there are always richer countries willing to pay relatively well for their most plentiful resource; humans - young girls in particular. As many as Two Million women and children are sold into slavery each year. While it is understandable, yet sad, is that poor countries would seek their survival in any way possible; what is sadder is that there are actually countries like the United States willing to buy and abuse young girls for their own pleasure, and perpetuate human trafficking and sexual slavery in the process. The aim of the Foundation is not only to end the human trafficking and sexual slavery that is still prominent on a global level, but also to provide sexual slavery survivors with the tools they need to succeed after horrible experiences, and also with the platform to speak out against their experiences and captors. Only by speaking up and being heard can we put an end to these horrific acts. It does these young, innocent girls no good to sit back and let someone else take charge, or to pass responsibility to someone more "qualified". The truth is, there is no one qualified to face and tackle the brutal truth of sexual slavery and human trafficking, and we all have to do our part in order to truly eradicate human trafficking and slavery as it exists today. Every individual has the power to change the world if they want to, so please do your part and give your heart to this cause; please help out as best as you can. You can help simply by telling more people about the suffering of these young girls being brutally raped and tortured every single day after being sold as slaves and having their lives and choices taken away from them. Please talk to people that you know, tell people on Facebook, Tweet it, blog about it, get involved or start something at your school or college campus, and share the cause with the community around you in general. To find out more about how you can help and get involved with the cause, click HERE. To learn more about the organization, Somaly Mam Foundation (SMF), click HERE. To learn more about Somaly Mam herself, the incredible woman who started it all, click HERE. Lastly, to see a quick little video of Shay Mitchell of Pretty Little Liars talking about how much this cause means to her, click HERE. Please take the time to check out more information about this cause, and to help out in any way you can. Remember: "True beauty is about giving and starts on the inside."
Song of the day, along with my mini-rant. Of course it's a song that I've heard many, many times before, but I'm tired right now, tired of bs, tired in general, annoyed and sick of my own stupidity and naivety among a lot of other things, so I kind of need a pick-me-up. I need a moment to breathe, before I have to go back to tackling any more problems and issues in my life and before I have to go back to crossing things off on my to-do list even though it's summer. I'm just so, so tired of messing everything I touch, up, and I'm so tired of feeling like a screwup, and I'm so incredibly tired of life moving so fast. I feel like I'm falling behind, or that life's a whirlwind ride that I can't get off of even though everyone else is controlling their speeds really well and basically succeeding. I'm so afraid of not succeeding, but I still put all my hope and faith into the idea that I'll eventually succeed. I just don't know how to make that eventual success happen, and sometimes I feel like any and all of my efforts towards making that eventual success happen are all in vain because my shitty luck will overpower my efforts. I feel unperfect, messed up, broken, cracked, and not in a good, unique, individual way, but rather in a way that my cracks won't allow me to succeed or be a whole person at all, let alone an individual. Perfect in every way is bad and unnecessary, but perfect in some waysis necessary. But, I still try to stay positive, because allowing myself to be sucked into a whirlpool of self-pity and self-misery is exactly how I ended up making so many bad choices in life, and living in the darkness is no fun. I want to be able to thrive in the light, even though I may not be ready for it yet. I'm trying to beat my fears, and conquer my past though, so I can one day live without the self-pity. It's hard, and the first step is just staying positive.... and not messing up so much and making mistakes that are so preventable. So that's why I chose this song; it kinda gets me pumped, or at least feeling better about myself. Usually such overt, obvious lyrics don't make me feel better but Sel Go's voice is just so awesomely powerful that it really gets deep into me and cheers me right up. So yeah, here's to hoping I feel better after 3 minutes and 21 seconds, and you guys get some positive reinforcement too. Plus, the video's pretty awesome as well.
Hey twizzlers! (That was weird... I don't even actually like twizzlers... oh well. Randomness is the spice of life. Case in point; "Some days, I try to be normal. Then it gets boring, so I go back to being me!") Okay, so today I'm kind of going to go on a brief rant (I definitely want to stay positive in this blog, but I also want to get some things out of my system.) So yeah I'll talk about how I think I run my mouth WAY too much and how my word filter kind of stops working from time to time, leading me to say things I definitely do not mean/should not have evereverEVER mentioned or said. So I could definitely have handled a couple of situations I was thrown into today a whole lot better. So I wanna just mention, by example, just how important thinking before you speak really is. Oh, and I hope the photos of Raina were insipring! I might post up a couple fashion photos at the end of this post, just two or three of my absolute favorites. After which I will stop clogging my blog with photos, and encourage you all to just go check her website out. But after this little mini-rant, I'll throw you guys a song of the day, and also throw out a cute little 'item of the day' ... I saw a shirt at Forever 21 that I really loved. I didn't end up buying it (gotta love not having a summer job.) but it's cute. I know a lot of bloggers/readers already have it, but I just saw it today since I haven't been shopping in forever. Either way, here you go: Cute, right? Good message too; I definitely want to wear the idea that I see beauty in everything. That's kind of what this blog is about - finding the beauty in each and every little thing, because everything really is beautiful in its own way. You just have to look hard/deep enough to find the beauty in some things because they've been covered up with so much dirt, poison and unnecessary garbage (there's no beauty in illogical hate in its purest form). I didn't end up buying the raglan shirt (I actually saw it in white in the store, and liked that better, but I couldn't find the shirt on the F21 website, and there were no pictures of it in white online! --got this one off of Google Images) But that's okay. If I'm meant to have the shirt, it'll eventually find its way back to me. I'll be back in a short while with a daily song and a little brief rant about how not thinking before I speak gets me into SO much trouble sometimes.
